I had no single friend in the world (and of course no boyfriend) until I was 18 years old, because I was shy and also I was/am not looking good. So noone approached me, only for making fun of me and my "thin lips" or my "ugly smile". This caused me to have severe suicidal thoughts. Only when I met my boyfriend when I was 18, I startet having some friends and being able to participate in society. But I have suicidal thoughts about my looks to this day at times.